Persistence – Week 17 – (MKE 2018-2019)

My word this week is Persistence.  When I selected that mindset for the week I was not physically sick; but, within 24 hours (Monday afternoon and evening) my chest and sinuses where congested along with some chills.  Suddenly, the concept of persistence toke on a totally different mindset for me.  On Tuesday, I did my normal routine and kept all my business appointments.  On Wednesday, the same mindset – nothing got canceled.  Thursday, when I did not get out of bed until 2 hours later than my normal getting out of bedtime, I knew this “illness” was bigger than any persistence I had inside of me.   And then my physical endurance along with persistence ended.   I did what I could on Thursday however, I did cancel business meetings.  And the same thing happened on Friday (today).  My Saturday has only one business commitment – and I will honor that commitment in the morning.  Due to the snow storm, we are supposed to get on this coming Sunday my 8-hour continuing education class has already been changed to one week later.  So in summary, my initial mindset of persistence did not happen the way I thought it would.  Out of 7 days, only 4.5 followed my calendar’s commitments.  That left 2.5 days with no business commitments – so I took 2-hour afternoon naps and had uninterrupted segments of getting the paperwork completed.

I know life is about the ability to change.  And, my concept of Persistence changed this week.  Persistence now means to me that I make the best use of my time in the present moment.  I can be relentless about working my business which has several kinds of working components. I am not healthy enough to be around people – but, I am healthy enough to cough on the papers in front of me as I am blowing my nose. This has become a season for me to regroup.  These days have become a gift of alone time with paperwork projects from My God.  I would much rather be with people than paperwork projects — BUT, persistence this week turned out to be getting projects of paperwork completed.  And this is not what I wanted, however; it is what my business and life needed.  I learned to go with the changes and find my compass.  Life is grand — we just need to change our perception and expectations on situations over which we have no control of.

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“Nothing in this world can take the place of persistence. Talent will not; nothing is more common than unsuccessful men with talent. Genius will not; unrewarded genius is almost a proverb. Education will not; the world is full of educated derelicts. Persistence and determination alone are omnipotent. The slogan Press On! has solved and always will solve the problems of the human race.”
― Calvin Coolidge

KINDNESS – Week 16 – (MKE 2018-2019)

Twenty-some years ago – this word KINDNESS changed my life.  And I owe it all to a Jewish Rabbi/therapist because I did not know how to handle life.  My father, who was the love and hero of my life, died suddenly at 63 years old.  His death was the reason I placed myself into some therapy with this Rabbi.  My Mother was always mean, vain and I now know or realize that she has her own mental and emotional issues.

This Jewish Therapist asked me why I was expecting my Mother to be something she was not capable of being.  This sentence, this question, or this realization changed my life.  And, mentally I finally understood that I needed to accept my mother for who she is.   The Rabbi asked what I wanted from my Mother that I never received.  The following week my answer to him was “kindness”.  And so a written journal that week started.  Daily, I needed to find five plus acts of kindness and every night written them down. This practice continued in my life for many years.

Even today — kindness is so important to me that it is in my business tag line …. Kindness Matters.  My friends, my clients or customers, and my professional peers would all describe me as being kind in my actions and in my words.  People (including my siblings) have no idea that the “happiness value” is how I changed myself so that I would not be like my Mother.

Jumping into Present Time:

During the Week of studying Chapter Sixteen, I instantly knew that this word “kindness” did not come back into my life without me needing to learn another big concept.  And, so in my private world after several hours of meditation, I realized I needed to forgive my Mother for her actions and attitudes over the past 60 plus years. Twenty years ago I mentally understood; but, I did not forgive her until now in the month of January 2019.  So, just like peeling the layers off of an onion – I am peeling back my own emotions to forgive her.

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When you forgive, you in no way change the past – but you sure do change the future. …

I Am Behind – Week 15 – (MKE 2018-2019)

Reasons – Holiday Time – Exhausted from an intense year and took 10 days off from my work (A Stay At Home Vacation) – Way too many friends and family times I reconnected with.  I went up to Manhattan for 24 hours plus.  My business for 2019 is changing and my thoughts were restructuring and the changes started.  My real estate team is expanding with new agents.  I have been approached to do a partnership with another follow Realtor in my office.  I have been approached to head up a new “Meet Up” group for new inventors in the Montgomery/Bucks Counties real estate market.  One of my clients has lied to me (in fact, it could be considered an ethics violation) and she cannot do what she claims – how should I handle her actions for the best of all involved? My business is rapidly expanding and I am not certain how I feel about that.  Each day feels like it is an emotional roller coaster both professionally and personally.    Scroll Four “I am Natures’ Greatest Miracle” is causing me distress every time I read it.  I read it aloud; I listen to a mini reading I created for this Scroll 3 times a day AND; I fall asleep at night listening to a loop of this scroll from Audible.com. It is still very uncomfortable.

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I am behind and I feel that way with life right now.  SO for the past 9 days, I have this project list in front of me.

Each day a business project needs to be completed.

Each day a friend who I did not see over the holidays — I reach out to set up some time to be physical with (I am now setting up time at the end of February).

Each day another project in the house (mostly cleaning something) is completed.  Do It Now! Do It Now!

Each day I wake up at 6:00 am and I am ready to start my professional day at my home office by 8:00 am.

I get very “cranky” when I do not get my sleep – and so I go to bed every night at 10:00 pm.  The alarm rings too soon while waking me up.

My goal is this:  The month of January puts me in excellent shape for the rest of 2019.  Every year I want to live my life differently from the past years.  And now, I am determining what I want to accomplish in the calendar year of 2019.   This is what I do know:  Currently, my life is more rigid than I want.  I do need to read Scroll Four every day this year – Scroll Four is my “Achilles’ Heel”.  I know that as I get older each year is getting better for me   ………………….

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“Life is not complex.  We are complex.  Life is simple, and the simple thing is the right thing.”  Oscar Wilde

I Will Persist. I Will Win. Scroll Three – Week 14 – (MKE 2018-2019)

It is with great sadness that reading Scroll Three is coming to an end for me in a few days, as this month ends.  It is with ease and enjoyment that I read this Scroll; in fact, I believe, I can even say it was comforting to me.  In my childhood and my younger adult years, my father would often say to me “you will persist until you succeed – your life is worth that mindset”.  This Scroll brought me so much closer to His Spirit, as I remembered his strength, his voice and his determination sprinkled with kindness.

My Past Life needs to be filed away and that cabinet drawer closed. Nobody can healthily live in yesteryear.  Now, I need to make each hour of every day which I am proud of.  Today, I will live my life as though my future as yet to be written.  “My Today” is all which matters. “My Today” will write “My Tomorrow”.

I know that there are no coincidences in my life.  In June of this year, I met Michelle, a 38-year-old single mother (one daughter who is 20 months old) and she asked me if I would do real estate agent coaching with/for her.  The two of us “just clicked” so we started to meet every Friday morning from 10:00 – 11:30 and have done so for the past six months.  Within four/five meetings, it was clear to me that Michelle needed “Life Coaching” before she could become a profitable Realtor.  So, I started to informally weave the concepts from the Master Key Experience into our weekly conversations.  Michelle was a “sponge” and I could see her body energy grabbing the concepts we were talking about and how she could put them to practical use in her present life.  I am telling you all of this because I saw “My Past Life” in her.  I realized that just like me – Michelle did not know how to connect to the pathway of how to live.  Just as I had nobody whom I felt like I could trust to share my confusion with — she was in the same situation.  I am making a difference in her life just as she is making a difference in my life.  After every session, I will text message a quote to her which sums up our session.   Today, I sent Michelle this message…

“You are the embodiment of the information you choose to accept and act upon.  To change your circumstances you need to change your thinking and subsequent actions.” Adlin Sinclair

I Will Persist and Live In Present Time. I Will Succeed.  I Will Share.

Happy New Year Day next week.

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“Big angels visit in our sore dismay, but, little ones go in and out all day…”

Christmas Tree – Week 13 (MKE 2018-2019)

Over twenty years ago I loved Christmas and totally enjoyed the holidays – the decorations, the festive times with my employees, my family and friends.   Life was great, fun and so good.  Between my office and my house there where at least a dozen big, tall and live trees delivered to be decorated with white twinkle lights and so much more for the end of the year celebrations.

Then, within several months in 1997, life dramatically changed for me and the Happy Holidays where no longer recognized nor celebrated in my life.

However, this week – Saturday night, December 15th with ease and joy I found a stored three-foot high artificial tree in my house storage area, removed the tree out of the box, added colored twinkle lights and many decorations.  My heart is happy.  It is a return to Happy Holidays, again, in this last third period of my life here on Planet Earth.

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“Big angels visit in our sore dismay,

but,

little ones go in and out all day…”

Panic Mode Experience – Week 12 (2018/2019)

Yesterday was a New Week and I was all excited to begin this last intense work week before the end of this year and enjoy some holiday time.

My MKE readings were completed and I had finished mentally setting up of the day while enjoying a good cup of coffee with sprinkles of cinnamon were now completed. And then, shower time (including washing my hair) and to my dismay, no hot water came out of the faucet.  Only cold water on a cold weather Monday and I was surprised and maybe even shocked.  The reality was cold and jarring and unpleasant!   I had business appointments already in play for this Monday morning whether or not I had hot water to shower and wash my hair with.  Once I got over the shock of cold water I panicked — big time panic attack.  Money needed – most likely a $1500 bill would come to replace my 50-gallon electric hot water heater — and this was just when I felt like I was finally getting even with my daily cash flow.

But, as fast I as I went into a panic mode I stopped and instantly found peace and I could even say comfort.  I laughed at myself and found I was humming the song “What a Wonderful World” by Louis Armstrong.

I see skies of blue and clouds of white

The bright blessed day, the dark sacred night

And I think to myself what a wonderful world

Yes I think to myself what a wonderful world

 

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All because —- I believe there are NO coincidences —- on Tuesday I have a transaction going to settlement and by the end of this week I will be paid from my company. I can afford to have the plumbing company come and install a brand new hot water heater which will be paid in full as soon as the invoice is received. I choose to believe that My God held the hot water heater together for 15 years to provide service to me.  And, it was only when I could cash flow this expense did it stop working.

My cash flow situation is changing because my attitudes are changing. 

My attitudes are changing because of the Master Key Experience

is teaching me how to think. 

So, again, with tears of gratitude, I say thank you to the MKE leadership team.

 

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Being Alive, Again! Week 11 (MKR 2018/2019)

Change is difficult but I am learning to love every moment.  I am finding that I am documenting every project (everything) my business needs – the concept it needs to be written done to make it happen is so true.

AND more importantly, I love Scroll Three as we learn the principle of persistence.   My father was a self-made millionaire and this principle of persistence was one I heard from him with consistency as his daughter.  He died over 20 plus years ago but one of the reasons I love/enjoy/want this Master Key Experience is because it brings back to me so many of the concepts he taught me growing up as a child.  Mindsets, I had lost throughout the decades.

I feel like I have been in the wilderness – no a desert – just existing and not consciously living since his death.  And then in September 2018, I became conscious again due to the 4:00 pm webinar on Sundays.   It is almost like a religious experience.  It is like warm oil is being applied to a hurting soul with kindness and gentle love.  Thank you to the MKE leadership team.

I am finding delight and joy, again.  My soul, which could not cry and feel emotions, has come back and the tears are now of joy. Life is becoming good again.

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Genuine Smile – Week 9 (MKR 2018/2019)

This past Sunday, November 18th I needed to attend a Celebration of Life Service during the same time period as the live MKE Sunday’s webinar and could not get online to attend.   I missed not being there.   It surprised me how strong I felt this emotion.   I felt like my week was not “bookended”.  There was no “official reset button”.  There was no joy and delight because I had not intensely reviewed my past week or consciously set up my positive mental attitude this week of Thanksgiving here the USA.  I felt alone again and as if I was not part of this community.  My thoughts, fortunately, overrule my emotions and I know I am very much a part of this MKE community.  So I was reading and doing the assignments this week the joyful and feeling of delight came back.  I told myself that just like the moon and sun are always present – our planet earth just changes positions – that joy and delight are always present in my life.  The question I need to ask myself is do I want to find them or not? Everything is always fluid.

On Wednesday afternoon, November21st, my aunt (who is my best friend) said to me the following:   “When a person has a genuine simile that is a really good sign that they are on the right path.  And for the past several weeks your simile has been very genuine with kind eyes.  What is going on in your world that I do not know about?”  My answer (without even a pause of thinking) to her was that I am learning to love and accept myself.  It was only after we parted ways that I realized how profound her words where.

Later that same evening, during a phone call with Robyn (another friend of mine), she told me that her mother always reminded her of the following:  “Big angels visit in our sore dismay, but little ones go in and out all day…”   

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So on this special Thanksgiving holiday weekend, I am especially thankful for all the many angels in my life (both seen and unseen).   And for the experience of being a member of the Master Key Experience during this cycle.

Mental Awaking of Creative Imagination – Week 8 (MKR 2018/2019)

This month I am totally enjoying reading and rereading Scroll Two on a daily bases and then some more.  I am finding I actually yearn to read this particular Scroll and hear the words spoken to me through Audible.   It is a comfort for my soul.

So I asked myself while I am reading The Master Key – Part Eight daily what do I need to learn from this assignment?  My personal journal throughout this week where my insights, which were many are written and I promise myself that I will be reread my entrees many more times before the end of this year. I always keep my promises.  I enjoyed picking apart the concepts and daily thinking about how I bring my thoughts into actions.

One big moment in the last seven days for me was when I realized that I lost my creative imagination.  I forget to believe in myself and what I could create for me.  What I thought was not possible for my life SUDDENLY became possible.  It was as if my eyes opened and connected with my mind.  Like an electrical cord was plugged into an electrical socket and all the Christmas tree twinkle lights came on for the first time in many decades.  That is how it felt. 

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And, so I welcome back into my world my imagination.  I choose to nightly explore my imagination with my daily night time comforting cup of herbal tea.  And, to write down my imaginative thoughts as I drink my tea at the end my day.  This is what I want and need.  And so, another practice for me nightly to participate in as I am better taking care, respecting and honoring me.  Imagination.  I will make it the gold thread which gets woven into “the quilt I know as living life”.        

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In honor of Scroll Two I will close this blog with this writing that I hold on tightly:   

Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. 

All things break.  And all things can be mended.  

Not with time, as they say, but with intention.   

So go.  Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally.  

The broken world waits in darkness for the light that is you.  

L.R. Knost

Understanding Me, Forgiving Me and Loving Me — Week 7A (MKR 2018/2019)

Marianne Williamson writes in her book entitled The Law of Divine Compensation the following:  Through the power of our thinking, we can radically shift our experience of the world.

            God loves us the same when we do the wise thing as when we make mistakes.  His love for us is based not on our behavior but on whom we are – innocent within – because He made us that way.  When we make a mistake, it’s because at the moment we make it we forget who we are, and His response to that is not to punish us but to correct us.

            This doesn’t mean you don’t do anything to do anything to make things right; in fact, any lesson you might have failed to learn before, you will have to learn now.  The mercy of the universe lies in the fact that you are given the opportunity to do that.  …  Once you have reclaimed your inner prosperity, the universe will begin the process of reclaiming it externally.

            You are internally programmed to rise to your highest creative possibility.  Nothing you do can erase the yearning of your soul to achieve it, or the yearning of the universe to give it to you.  No deviation from love – on your part or anyone else’s – can keep the universe from its divine intention that your life is one of fullness and joy.  

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This picture is how I feel.  “The Sunbeam” finally found the way to come into my life through working this MKE program on a daily and an hourly base.  MKE is giving me the steps to find the find “The Sunbeam” and other programs in my daily life (examples – readings from A Course in Miracles and writings from the author Marianne Williams) are reinforcing all which is being taught.  Much of this is based on God’s Grace for me.  Which now I realize is a much bigger concept than I ever knew. 

My personality is the color white – no mistakes are allowed – and my mother always has been and always will be most critical of both her two daughters.  Today, however, I understood for the first time in over 63 years I no longer need to live with “Mother imposed negative judgment” and my own guilt and shame.  My world is bigger than what I knew.  So, now with delight and pure joy, I need to say thank you with love to my God.

Do not be dismayed by the brokenness of the world. 

All things break.  And all things can be mended.  

Not with time, as they say, but with intention.   

So go.  Love intentionally, extravagantly, unconditionally.  

The broken world waits in darkness for the light that is you.  

L.R. Knost